i miss You

Tonight You said “I miss You”

From my screen.

Me in my bedroom,

You in Vermont,

under a half moon.

Your parents watching French films

In the other room.

It made me smile

and feel seen;

You took the words

right out from behind my teeth.

I was planning on saying

the same thing,

this Thursday

when You’d come over

and kiss me.

I’ve been tangled within myself,

caught up in the maybes -

and what ifs -

Of a negative narrative,

spun by a past

that no longer exists.

So just give me a minute

and I’ll unravel within it,

to tell you I miss You,

take the risk of risking You.

Blame it on a pisces moon.

I reach dead ends when I over think.

You’d think the thinking would keep me from sinking,

But thoughts get heavy

when they’re overfed.

See I’m a giver,

it’s my favorite trait.

Keeps me floating, high overhead.

When I find meaning in something

I pour to keep it from going dead.

Give it hope, give it water,

give it dread,

Just enough -

to overwhelm the meaning,

helps it start sinking instead.

If my feet never leave the ground

I can’t crash or stumble down.

The view from here is kind -

5’8 with a mind that’s miles high,

living proof that earth signs can learn to fly.

Just three little words, at the right time.

I miss You.

That’s brave of me to say.

I’ve learned to stuff courage in love, away.

I’ve been bold in other corners of my world.

Tonight You were bold in the corner I’ve come to mourn.

“I miss You” is a match.

It flames on a bud, illuminates, and scratch.

Illuminates what I forgot:

the edges of a sky I once watched.

I miss You sounds nice.

I miss You sounds right.

I miss You rings deep.

I miss You is a leap…

“I miss You too” I said tonight.

From your screen

in your bathroom.

Me in the city,

under a pisces moon.

You in Vermont,

with your voice in my bedroom.

It made me smile

and feel perceived

By a version of me I love to be.

“I missed You” I’ll say,

with blazoned teeth

on Thursday night

when you kiss me